Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Amber Huerta
Amber Huerta

Wildlife biologist and photographer specializing in sloth conservation, with over a decade of field experience in Central and South American rainforests.